It matters where our focus is

It matters where our focus is

It matters where our focus is

It was going to be a beautiful spring day.
I could tell by the golden rays playing peek-a-boo through the tiny crack in my drapes.

I noticed it but I wasn’t feeling it.

Lying there I was tempted to pull the sheets over my head and steal another hour tucked under the covers but I resisted the temptation and instead, half-heartedly threw my legs over the side of the bed.

To be honest with you, despite the brightness of the morning, I was feeling rather drab. My spirit was weary even though the night had been restful. And neither the warm kiss of the sun through the bathroom window or the sweet song of the red breasted robin in our pear tree could stir my soul to joy.

There was nothing sudden about this weariness in my spirit. It had slowly crept in over the last few months, the residual effect of getting lost in every day responsibilities and not keeping my eyes and heart focused on God.

Distracted by the cares and frustrations of life, I had allowed myself to become unintentionally vulnerable, thus, blind-sided by the enemy of my soul. Those unsuspecting moments of his intrusion that not only stole my joy but also hijacked my passionate pursuit for the things of God that were so precious to my heart.
More precisely, my quiet, intimate moments with Him and my writing. Two of the things, outside of my family, that gave my life meaningful purpose.

I had become stagnant.

Standing there looking at my reflection in the bathroom mirror, I felt parched as if I had been walking through a desert under the midday sun. I knew this spiritual drought needed to come to an end. It had gone on for far too long. I swallowed hard and the sudden tears burned the back of my eyes before cascading silently down my cheeks.

“Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint…Turn and deliver me, save me because of your unfailing love.” Psalm 6:2&4
As I stood there offering my heart to God, I was suddenly reminded of a song I use to sing in youth group.

As the deer panteth for the water so my soul longeth after Thee. You alone are my heart’s desire and I long to worship Thee.

Yes I did long to worship Him.

Truly worship Him.

With all of me.

Delesslyn A. Kennebrew from Christianity Today wrote

“True worship is defined by the priority we place on who God is in our lives and where God is on our list of priorities. True worship is a matter of the heart expressed through a lifestyle of holiness.”

I discovered I didn’t just want but needed God to be top priority in my daily life. No matter what was going on in my life, good or bad, I had a hole in my heart that only He could fill.

So, right there in the middle of my bathroom floor, I found myself kneeling in His presence, in repentance, in surrender, in worship.
And He met me there!

It felt great to soak in His presence.

Why do I share this with you?

Because in this place of honesty and transparency stands an opportunity for restoration. For you and for me.
I believe at some point or other, we’ve all been where I was. Fatigued and burnt out by life, we’ve all allowed distractions, in varying degrees, to steal us from His presence and from our purpose. Those moments the enemy uses to undermine our faith and destroy our hopes and dreams.
Yet God in His infinite grace and mercy longs to draw us back to Him.

May we be like A. W. Tozer and pray..

O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more…I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still.”

Come on, let us journey together by faith today.  God bless you!


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About Lureta

Jesus lover. Wife, mother, RN, blogger. Pushing past fear on the journey to encourage and inspire others to pursue our extraordinary God.


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    1. So well written! I think you wrote about me! Focus, focus, focus a much definite need for me. I don’t have a steady blog just yet. But somewhere/sometime down the road I hope to have. Your pure honesty is so much appreciated. Thank you for sharing your heart.

      1. LaRhonda
        I am honored that you stopped by. Thank you. There are so many things in a single day that can pull our focus away from our Saviour and sometimes so unsuspectingly!!! That’s why our focus has to be purposeful. Looking forward to your blog.

  1. Reading your blog reflects what I feel at times–stagnant. Thank you for sharing your spiritual journey. You’re truly an inspiration Lureta!

    1. Thank you Nerissa…..your words are truly encouraging. In those moments when we feel stagnant, may we endeavor to stay focus on God, trusting and resting in His great love for us

  2. Many times I have been in this very place- whether it be in my bathroom, or my kitchen, or even in the laundry room. And how precious that He shows up wherever we are? How beautiful that He fills our drought-filled souls with water from the River of Life? He is so good!

  3. Love your thoughts! Thank you for baring your soul with us! I am glad that you are back in the river again, wading in the Living Water! Blessings to you!

  4. Recently, i felt burnt out and i realised my focus had shifted from God to all the projects I was working on. Thank you for the reminder to focus on worship instead of our feelings.

    1. I am reminded when I’m feeling the effects of being out of focus these words….as the deer pants for the waters so my soul longs after thee. You alone are my heart’s desire…
      God bless you

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